Super Cookie Ninja

Bye

2011-10-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

I Will no longer use this blog,
If you still wanna find me
Go to : www.supercookieninja.blogspot.com

changed

2011-09-29T22:10:00.002+08:00

hi guys i changed the url of this blog to its original url bcause i know some ppl cant read this blog. so yes, its now 'OPEN' again!
so yes now its cafesuraya.blogspot.com once again. im keeping supercookieninja.blogspot.com on reserved though. i just love dat url too much

here's my heart in a postcard darlin'

2011-09-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

did i do something wrong or something?

The sun will shine once more

2011-09-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

i believe

walking down the street that we grew up in

2011-09-12T00:28:00.002+08:00

It's midnight and I should be sleeping.But this is where I am right now. I suddenly feel like writing and i feel like i want to be honest,blunt and unrestricted in this post this time around. I realized something last night, i wrote it down in my diary. I wasted three years hoping someone would love me back. When in the end I know he won't. Not now, not then, never in the future. All the tears, the heartbreak, the ache, it all came to this day. It took me this long to realize the obvious truth drawn out in front of me. This year was the worst for me. I never had this much ache, wishful thinking, tears come down my face just for a guy. Never this much. And yesterday I told myself that this is it. I can't go on living this way anymore. It hurt my pride,my ego to let myself want someone so bad. I've never felt that bad before. I also broke a heart that didn't deserve to be broken, and I am very sorry to him. The other side in me still wanted the one thing I knew I can't have. I was wrong, with every single thought I had. Everything. I was wrong. I was wrong to have hoped so much from a man when I know he doesn't even care. I hope I learn my lesson this time around.

Positive mode: ON!

2011-08-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

Ok I've been complaining waaaaaay too much lately and I've been so moody all the flippin time.
So yes, no more of that. I just wanna be happy, healthy and live life the way I wanna. Thats all.

2011-08-21T18:49:00.001+08:00

raya is just around the cornerrrrr!

2011-08-11T15:54:00.001+08:00

soo... my theory exam is this saturday.
BUT IM NOT STUDYING AT ALL YAYYYYYY.
I hope i do okay. :B

2011-08-06T16:46:00.002+08:00

i think no one really reads my blog anymore.. its dead. but its still alive for me.

2011-08-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

Over the past year, God has blessed both me and my family

with things we could've never imagined. Last year was a struggle.

A struggle of which I survived and did my best no matter what happened.

This year I made different goals, strayed from the important things,

got caught up and too lost in the things I got, but not lost enough

to turn into a total fool.

This year I turned away people that love me,

This year I developed habits that I'm not proud of.

This year is still here and I want to change that.

Change my mindset, change what I've become, what I've been all awhile.

I'm sick of what I've become, I don't like what I see,

I'm not what I want to be yet. And that frustrates me A LOT.

I'm still not good enough. Everything. Just everything.

My piano, my studies, my other goals.

I'm just not good enough.

I hate disappointing the people that have put so much

trust towards me to do better and all I do is let them down.

What happened to me? Seriously?

Why am I not where I want to be.

Why am I not good enough.

I guess we all know the answer to that.

The obvious,

I'm just not working hard enough.

^^^^^

Decoder

2011-07-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

Today I would like to introduce to you guys a band that I've fallen in love with from the moment I first heard their demo version of 'Dreamwalker'. This is Decoder.

I first heard them sometime ago when i heard that Spencer (ex vocalist of VersaEmerge 2007) is in this band,i immediately checked them out because I have always admired Spencer's vocals. They're amazing. When I first heard their demo version of dreamwalker, i was instantly in love. Of course when their full length album came out i became almost obsessed with their music. It was so good. I'm usually not very into screamo-post-hardcore bands but Decoder is different! they have a certain ambiance in their music, it's mystical, dark and somewhat very muddy kind of music (in a good way of course...sorry i describe things very,,,weirdly). Their songs are so good, i cant even describe, Transcendence,Drones,Believers,The Horrid,Conflicts,Dreamwalker uh i feel like im gonna name every track on this album. Seriously. Best band I've found in awhile. Their music mixed with Keith's screams and Spencer's vocals. Okay I just really love this band veryveryvery much. I hope I get the chance to see them play someday in my life. I hope more people will recognize the talent this band has.

Old Friend Of Mine

2011-07-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

"Hey, please give this a read if you have time okay? I promise this will be the last message i send to you, i don't wanna disturb your life or anything. I just wanted to say....thanks for everything and helping me grow up. I really wish we became friends again...but i know that isnt easy. All the times we spent, everything. Yep they were some of of the best moments in my life. I know I'm not perfect, I mightve said things that could hurt you, things i didnt mean to say because i was soo consumed with my feelings at that moment. We both might've said things we didnt mean the last time we talked . And that really makes me sad.... You were the bestest friend I have ever had,we'd talk for hours and hours and hangout every week. I've been blessed to have known someone like you. :') It's so sad something so small could've caused our friendship to wreck into flames just like that. When I think about it..how could I ever let something so small overshadow all the best times we had? You know me, it's not easy for me to write something like this... i pun ego tersangatlah tinggi. but for once...i wanna let my pride and ego down. because this message is worth it. Because YOU are worth it. I miss you and love you buddy. Sorry for everything and thanks for everything. This is my last message i promise. If you wanna ever be friends again or hang or just talk....just call me. xx Suraya"

I sent this to someone I used to hangout with everyday dulu. We had a quarrel and it didn't end very well. that was almost a year ago. After sometime I finally gave my ego and pride up and sent this to him. Okay if he doesn't want to be friends anymore with me . It's OKAY. However I do admit, I was quite upset that he said I accused him of causing all this. I mean I opened up my bloody heart right there you know. That message was very personal and took a lot of it in me to write. I don't like revealing my vulnerable side to just anyone. I can't believe he actually thinks I'm accusing him. That is just so sad. I admitted my wrong and let my ego and pride down. I let it all down. Because I thought this would turn out good. I thought. I just assumed. But I should've known better. He wouldn't. In fact I shouldve known so well, knowing how he is. But it's okay. I don't mind. It's alright. I gave it a go. even when I admit that I'm wrong he's still gonna think whatever he's gonna think. I no longer even want to think about this. This will be the last post about this old friend of mine. I just wanted to say, it took a lot in me to write that, to pour my heart open, to be so sincere and honest that it bruised every inch of my pride inside. And he's saying I'm accusing him.... this is just so sad. But it's okay. I gave it a go. No more thinking of 'what ifs', because I have already given it a go. Yep. This is all.

Bye

hiiii

2011-06-26T14:58:00.000+08:00

hii! i dont think anyone reads my blog anymore. i feel like its just me. me and more meee.
its sunday a very lazy sunday. but on a side note :
my brother and i look like we're running and ruling the world in this picture.

ok . peace out.

OH
WAIT
I FORGOT TO TELL YOU GUYS THIS . (wait, if there are other people even reading that is..)

ok. thats all.

Bye . x

tonight alive - breaking & entering

2011-06-22T17:11:00.000+08:00

Soundtrack of my life for now.

fyeah

2011-06-21T19:23:00.000+08:00

i wonder if he still reads my blog. i wonder if he still lurks around my twitter. well if you are...
and if you are. this is something i kept to myself. this song, the lyrics fit me and my situation just way too well.
so if you are reading, or you came across this post... here is how i truly felt. im sorry

stranger i know so well

2011-06-09T18:01:00.000+08:00

^ this is sierra k^

oh hi.

i spent my holiday just by helping out kenduri's,

playing my xbox 360, played Mafia 2.

best game I've ever played in a long time,

i really like Vito, I could relate to him.

Really depressed about the ending of the game,

Sad that Joe had to die.

Never felt this attached to a game.

Damn, Mafia 3 kena keluar right now.

I need to know what happens to Vito next.

but on a more reality based part,

my grandma datang last week,

my aunty got married.

and lusa kena pi johor!

yayyy.

actually.

nayyy.

ok whatever lah

i should be doing my homework tapi satu benda pun

tak buat lagi, ah. sedih sedih.

ok dah, report back in some other post!

2011-06-09T17:43:00.000+08:00

i like star trek. deal with it. i want a man like Data. deal with it.

speak now

2011-06-01T20:13:00.001+08:00

2011-05-31T18:24:00.002+08:00

kalau dah start dengar lagu love ni, dah start la nk write lagu love love ni.
haha okay, as much as i hate to admit it. i am sorta, a hopeless romantic.
i like the idea of love and the concept of it, and its magical power.

caught in your eyes

2011-05-31T17:56:00.000+08:00

i wanna be the one that'll stop you from leaving tonight

the one exception, the girl that'll change your life

i wanna be the one that you'll hold tight

never let go ever, never tonight.

the everything in your eye

the one you want to sleep beside

wake up in the morning, caught in your eyes

forever

maybe not now, maybe a little later

but i'll make you mine, one day i swear sir

and you'll be standing with me,

we'll stand against the world,

hand in hand,

step by step.

we'll have each other everyday..

I wanna be the one that'll make you stay

Make you sing for me almost everyday

I wanna have your heart, and you can have mine,

We'll make it fair, no promises but we'll have expectations

you got my heart so,

everyday i know.

so come on, come on

2011-05-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

^bycharlavail^

Hello freaks. HellOooOoOO!

ok, so how is life treatin' ya dudes? Good?Bad?Great?Horrible?

I'm bored. Tryna release and trying not to tense myself up.Because

i know getting all tensed up won't bring me anything at all.

dengar happy songs, blah blah blah.

I'm finally getting back on the tracks! which is goood.

My piano exam is about a month awayyy~

and so thus i am practically suuuper worried.

But I am managing well and I guess this just calls for more practice

practice,practice and more practice.

ooooo

and my grandma is coming over the following weekend.

and my cousins and their kids and yayyy KIDDDSSS.

hahaha. ok sorry i lost myself completely.

im actually really high on sugar as I am typing now. woohoo

whooohoooz!!!

i hope aidi comes here .

i really do.

Staring back for a little while

2011-05-17T18:45:00.000+08:00

This blog is old, like really old. I've had this blog since 2007! Imagine, I was just 13 when i made this blog. Explains why I still keep this bloody blog open. Ive changed the URL, it's supercookieninja.blogspot.com now. my old URL was cafesuraya.blogspot.com . But I think the new url is better right? ;) I just finished reading some old blog posts... the year that i loved the most especially - 2009. The year where i had no worries, tons of people to rely on, and no pressure to figure out life and just breathe in and out secara care free. Damn, I miss that. That was the best. People come and go, i faham, that's life. the people i swore i'd be friends till the end of time are now no where in my sight. I faham. Ni semua hidup. Nothing lasts forever. But I've no hard feelings or anything. Kita hanya mampu untuk teruskan right? Tiba tiba terasa nak cakap some BM dalam post ni. hahaha. O well, rasa macam happy je tengok gambar lama dengan gang dulu. :) i wonder how some of the people in these pictures are doing now? I bet they're fine. Some might dah enter college, some dah grad, some dah start business sendiri and such..i think . I think I've lost my life this year, but for good reasons of course. I mean I've to focus on what's important righttt. Tak boleh la nak suka suka je all the time kan?

hmmm now my life is too slow and too fast at the same freakin time. Tak tau la macam mana nak manage dah ni.
But life has just begun, I'm ready for a fresh start anytime and anywhere all the time. Im Suraya Melina and I am strong.

RANT

2011-05-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

i have to admit, i havent really written anything from my heart for a long time. or atleast everything was transfered from my heart to my brain for editing and therefor what i've written is what i've carefully cut out from the original post i was going to post (from the heart, obviously). this feels pretty pointless, even this post. i wish i could blurt out everything from my heart out to this blog. pour it all out, without feeling any guilt,any hard feelings, any fear of hurting other people and such. This year has been slipping through my hands, like sand. Fuck i wish i could start over from January again. i really wish i could, i mean, im not fucking prepared at all. IM NOT PREPARED AT ALL. I WISH I AM. BUT IM NOT. i know where i went wrong. i know. its all my fault. im not good at organizing time. i dont wanna blame anyone else, because i know, other people may manage well. but not me. im horrible at managing my own shit. i hate where i am right now. spm, my piano exam, my music theory exam. everything. im just swearing twentyfour-fucking-seven now in my head. i cant sleep cause i keep thinking like how the flucks am i gonna do this. my practical piano exam is this july. i havent even memorize my scales yet, my sight reading is horrible and my first piece is horrendous. my theory music exam is this august and okay im still fking clueless abt everything i do. and PLEASE MY SPM TRIAL IS AFTER THT. FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCK. FUCKKKK. FUCKKKK.

:'( i just wanna hide under my covers please. im so stressed out.

2011-05-08T21:14:00.001+08:00

Forever?
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2011-04-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

i just loveeeeee CharlaVail ! :3 isnt this bag super cute?

2011-04-21T19:12:00.002+08:00

i cant be contained in a box.

thats the truth.

2011-04-18T18:56:00.001+08:00

I have to leave now because I know if I decide to hold on any longer we'd both end up even more hurt. And yes, goodbye. It was sweet while it lasted. <\3
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2011-04-17T02:07:00.001+08:00

Having to let people down is the worst feeling ever
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Traces

2011-04-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

i wish i could share with all of you my mind right now at this time,

I'm listening to Mogwai's song 'I'm Jim Morrison I'm Dead'. and I'm

getting back to myself, this space in my mind that I've been neglecting for so long.

I admit, over the last few months I got pretty much warped into too much

life (is that even possible?haha) . Idk how to explain it, but it feels good to

finally sit here on this laptop, listen to some good music, hunt for some

really beautiful scenery pictures, starry skies and other beautiful things.

Appreciate the beauty of nature, take time to reflect on the things

that has happened to me the past few months. I'm looking at how time

is slowly slipping away. It's mid April and I am still where I am in Jan this

year. Where'd all the time go? How'd I let it all slip pass me?

Yeah, I'm thinking quite alot now.

I'm finally 17 now, (yeah i know i wrote this on my previous post)

^^^^^^

Yeah the above is the screen capture of that day.

That beautiful midnight, when Sierra K wished me happy bday.

Okay enough fangirlness and back to my life.

Life is...well....good. I mean, it's good.

I'm confused about a lot of things, I'm going back and forth about

all the decisions I'm making/have to make. It's actually really confusing..

I can't really state how I feel right here but I wish I could.

I make absolute no sense, but this is just who I am..

Hey guys

2011-04-10T22:21:00.001+08:00

So whatsup? This is my first time blogging using my phone. Haha so please excuse my spelling/typo errors and such...

Hmm my life has been pretty interesting lately, all the shit that happened last year, well yeah nw I'm finally seeing the light. I just turned 17 a couple days ago, :D yeah biatches! I'm old enough to take my freakin license! :D yeaaay! I texted and old friend the other day because his bday is somewhat close to mine. I mean, I can't lie. I miss him. Really. But I guess things became too bad between us all, so moving on... Hmm apa eh nak cerita kat blog ni? I knw no one really reads this blog anymore. Haha so basically I'm writing for myself then.

I have a boyfrienndddd. Hm I don't wanna cerita lebih2 because, well just because :) but yeah I'm happy with him.

Hmm what else.. Oh spm sucks !
And...uuhh... Did I tell you guys Sierra K wished me happy birthday? I nearly died I swear. I'll always remember that. She's my idol. :D I've never looked up to a girl as much as I look up to her <3

Heee. K now whut?! Haha man I can't find the right words to describe how I feel now. That's it fer nw. Bye guys
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2011-04-08T18:50:00.002+08:00

i loveeee my boyfriend.

okay imma do a real blog update soon, like not one sentence type of blog posts. i'll find time somehow. haha
why is there no app on blackberry for blogger. shizzzzzzzzzzzzz. or am i just too stupid and dont knw? haha.

;(

2011-03-30T18:16:00.002+08:00

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer, do you know youre unlike any other? you'll always be my thunder

at the back of my mind, i still think of you

2011-03-30T17:58:00.001+08:00

and i feel incredibly guilty.

2011-03-15T10:12:00.000+08:00

2011-03-08T11:34:00.001+08:00

"What Happens Tonight,

Stays Only Tonight"

2011-03-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

i love you more

wow , bodohnya aku.

2011-02-25T22:29:00.001+08:00

im sorry

2011-02-22T16:53:00.001+08:00

that i cant help you,

i wish i could

i really do

2011-02-20T17:37:00.001+08:00

Life is life and all you can do is move forward

2011-02-15T11:53:00.000+08:00

truth be told,

im actually quite happy how things are now.

i have your back, and you have mine.

i'll always support and help you always.

i might not be very good at showing my caring side,

just sayin'.

but i hope i'll be able to show you how i truly feel,

thankyou.

and i really care about you.

i don't know what im feeling, is this even normal?

god knows if you even feel the same way.

but yeah, i hope this isn't a one sided thing.

i really really really really hope...

it's more...

maybe , maybe not

2011-02-13T07:49:00.000+08:00

won't put my hopes too high.

i feel this way but maybe you don't.

whatever it is.

im scared.

:D

2011-02-02T14:17:00.002+08:00

I feeeeeellll goood :]

I FEEL HORRIBLE AGAIN

2011-01-24T17:31:00.001+08:00

ugh.

"what's wrong? cmon tell me..."

2011-01-23T21:39:00.000+08:00

i don't know how to explain to you.

FYI im not good with explaining how I feel.

How could I explain that I was feeling lonely?

Wouldn't that make me sound desperate?

How could I explain the emptiness inside?

Wouldn't that make you feel sorry for me?

I don't wanna seem weak.

I have an ego.

yeah I'll finally admit it. I do.

But yesterday I lost it.

I couldnt cope with it.
I really had to talk to someone.

And you were there even though you were busy.

thanks.

i mean really, i mean it.

even though i didn't even say why the

hell i was feeling like shit and i sounded half dead on the phone.

thanks, for being there when i needed someone.

freaking love their style

2011-01-22T16:25:00.000+08:00

Sierra Kusterbeck <3

Ellie Goulding <3

Lights.

actually there's more. but im too lazy to go find pictures of other ppl and upload them up. haha.

oh and yes what a boring saturday it is.

2011-01-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

I just want to meet you again.

I wanna see you again.

and it sorta hurts real bad.

life is good again.

2011-01-20T13:57:00.000+08:00

niiiiiceeeeeee.

never underestimate the daylight and the sun.

please no more moody weather okay?

to that guy right over there

2011-01-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

I don't think you'll ever know this,

but you,

you changed my life.

No I can't describe it, I can't find the words for it,

I can't even explain how.

You just did, and you've always been constantly there.

I know we might not talk alot.

We might rarely see each other,

but you.

You changed me.

I'm always terrified about things,

But i think in a way, I'm trying to learn to be braver thanks to you.

I'm not very good with expressing myself,

my guard is always ten meters high.

But..................

You'll never know this.

Never.

But yes. you are a huge impact in my life.

Always been since 08.

dont ever disappear. please.

swiftly

2011-01-09T13:10:00.000+08:00

It must be nice to be in love,

Especially if that person loves you back,

And all you feel like you ever need,

is just the two of you.

it must be nice to have someone

to call after a long day to tell that person

how'd the day went and how tired you

are the whole day but when you hear

that persons voice, everything just melts

away and you are comfortable, you feel safe,

you feel like where you truly belong because

that person is the only person who knows you

this well.

it must be nice .

2010-12-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

i think im the stupidest compared to all my cousins

hahahahahahhaha

happy for you folks scoring ridiculous results for pmr!

:DDD

next year i spm.

okay, im freaking out now.
SERIOUSLY.
sdhadahsahdjcbhfiabsifbc

IM BACK FOLKS

2010-12-18T19:08:00.001+08:00

Okay, after a month of closing this blog down, I've decided to open it up again.
Since this year is going to end soon, I guess I've to let go of the things that's been
bothering me throughout this year too huh? Yep. I'm ready fer this.
Ahhneyyway, before I continue on to my life, I wanna wish my most favourite
lady in the rock scene miss Sierra Kusterbeck a veryvery happy birthday!
She turns 20 today! Hope shes havin' a fun time in Italy. Sierra, if you
are reading this (which is probably not hahaa) thanks for being such an
inspiration to others out there. You are amazing.

So let's have a little Sierra appreciation post now shall we? :D

You guys have no idea how much i love this girl . hee.

Okay now back to my life.
bla bla bla. Dyed my hair today using Liese's hair dye, I bought it with Farah, we bought it yesterday.
We even chose the same colour, which is Milk Tea Brown. To be honest it came out rather okay.
At first I was like how the freakin hell will these white foamy stuff change my hair colour!?!?!?
But it did! haa. Currently it's like..brownish-red-ish.. I heard that the colour will get lighter
in a couple of days or weeks. Soo yeah we'll see how it goes. :]
Oh and today...... well... jerry replied back to me.

For those of you who don't know who Jerry is, well he's the former guitarist of VersaEmerge.
I love him to death and he's HILARIOUS. don't believe me? watch this video.

ANDDD if you don't believe this is his real facebook, then check his twitter, he gave the fb url there.

Oh I feel like I'm straying away from the events of my life . haha.
This week was okay, watched movies with ra, got yelled by my teacher fr not practicing. HAHAH.
Dyed my hair, went JOGGING 16 KILOMETERS! WOOHOO. and umm..
err...ahhh...ehh.. yeah i think that's about it, besides wasting my time playing the xbox.
Next week my grandma's coming!! :D yeaaaaay.
So the house is gonna be filled with people. Incredible right? I can't wait for it.
December is finally coming to an end. wow, what a year. I'm gonna recap the year soon.
in ANOTHER blog post. sebab yang ni dah macam melarat terlebih la pulak dah. hehe.

bye for noww.

Goodbye.

2010-11-14T21:15:00.000+08:00

This blog feels so dead.

It does, really.

I think, I'm going to do another blog.

I'll still keep this one, however I think I'll keep it private.

This is for all the memories.

The ones I hate and love, everything,

it's all in this blog.

As this blog shuts down,

I will start new.

New.

Goodbye.

trust the tragedy, it's showing something you've never noticed before

2010-11-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

side 1.
why am i here again?
why does this always happen to me?
why do stupid things always happen during the most busiest times?
WHYYYYY WAIIII WHYYY

side 2.
Okay, so umm..atleast..i uhhh...get more rest?
And uhh..i lost some...weight? :D
and.....and...uhhh....the nurses here are nice and the coolest?
and my doc (both doc Gan and Bala) are awesome.
okay, atleast. atleast right???

Okay suck it up Suraya. This is my third time kena admit here to this hospital......seeeriously.uhh..
and I'll be here again next week to remove my tonsils...(of which i am trying to postpone..or cancel it altogether). OKAY IM SO BORED. so really dont know what to write about...
well, they took like lots and lots of tests, involving the liver especially because at first it wasn't so good,
but after three blood tests Doc finally said that my liver is up and healthy! Yeyyyy.
K yeah I had like so many blood tests, i feel like all my veins on my arms have been poked .
oh and im writing with a needle on my left hand.... lol. Thing is I HAVE to get out of this place, because there are so many things I haven't done yet, I haven't been practicing my piano AT ALL and my homework is everywhere. I know my teacher is disappointed and its sad really because I want to do my best. Also, I want to start on making those charm bracelets but that's on hold too. Gosh, what luck man. Dahlah Paramore tak pegi, lepas tu sakit pulak damn damn damn (yeah i was sick since that very day 19 oct paramore show because i was so upset i couldn't go so I developed fever and other stupid shiz) I think I've been here in this hospital for about a week and doc won't let me out UNTIL Tuesday..yes Tuesday. What the hell.
I feel so fine. seriously.
but i understand, i mean he's still waiting for the test results and all but still...sigh.

IWANNAGETTHEEFFOUTOF HEREEEEEEEE!!!! > :(

2010-10-25T15:20:00.000+08:00

If you were still around, I swear, we would sit and stare, we would be nowhere...

And to this day I look for what it's going to take, to just let things be...
Sill today I wonder is it you or me who should feel guilty...
I'm pulling, I'm pushing, I'm putting it out of my mind.
... thought that I had said goodbye

..

2010-10-21T19:28:00.000+08:00

The heart, the soul,

and everything else you can't control.

.

2010-10-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

i haven't updated anything in a long time, sorry, i guess i'm more of a tumblr person nowadays.
But I'll be updating something major soooooon.
but in the mean time here's my tumblr.

CLICK HERE YOU

the importance of FAMILY

2010-09-18T21:46:00.001+08:00

Family always plays a vital part in life, no matter what happens.

Thankfully I was born into a very loving and supportive family

where we've got each others backs no matter what happens.

Where we embrace every situation together and

we never give up on one another.

Sure sometimes we fight, sometimes we argue,

but at the end of the day we all know

that we'll always stick out for each other.

My mum is a beautiful lady, not to mention VERY strong.

Shes my super woman,shes amazing so so so amazing and

I love her so damn much.

Shes been through alot but look at her now,

I've never seen a more determined lady in my whole entire life.

My dad is someone who is very patient. He's

the guy with the quiet confidence. He's a very loving father,

very patient with his kids and a great story teller.

But however don't make him too mad or he'll

explode into a katrillion pieces and you'd have the shock

of your life to see him so mad hahaha

(talking from experience LOL)

My brother... well he's amazing.

He is so strong and understanding.

Sure sometimes he might have a temper..

But he is the most honest person I know,

when he has your back he has it forever...

or until you do something really bad to him....lol..

I mean eventho he doesn't like going to shows and stuff,

he still follows me around just to protect me.

And he doesn't even whine much about it!

Now tell me how many brothers actually do this?

Not many right?

Thats why Im so thankful to have him as a brother.

i like birds and pretty skies

2010-08-12T15:20:00.000+08:00

Some random pictures I took.

*Note : I don't own any fancy schmansy DSLRs.

A Real Owl Sleeping, taken @ ikano power centre,

On the way to Kedah

I love this one mainly because of the bird, i love the position
it's making when it's landing on the branch. @ penang.

At Aidi's house, the tree with no head, used to have one.
Wonder what happend?

static

2010-08-11T15:12:00.000+08:00

1. They look sooo alike! How can this be?

2. Just four more marks and I couldve gotten a distinction for

my piano exam! DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN.

Guess I have to settle with a Merit. :s

Will not let this happen ever again.

3. Finally puasa is here! :)

and last of all...

okay fine there is no last of all.

My life's pretty boooooring.

i have some interesting pictures im gonna post up soon.

some including my bird-tography at penang, and other random shits.

oh and happy 25th birthday abang wan! ♥

May Allah bless you always. :)

2010-08-09T15:50:00.000+08:00

existence

.

2010-07-28T15:53:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, just changed the layout of my blog, updated my music playlist on the right

and made a new blog title headline thingy up there.

It's quite the opposite of what it used to be. I sort of like it,

but however if you guys know me very well - you should sure know

that I am known to be VERY indecisive about things.

And it's just the way I am.

Hmm oh well, what should I write about today?

I wish I had some super duper crazy life i could tell you guys,

say i'm a secret agent spying on some huge mysterious company.

lol

kidding.

not much of an update, i know.

talk more later ok.

bye

Of civets and other random things

2010-07-21T18:23:00.003+08:00

Isn't that the cutest thing ever? :3

sooooo comel kan?

That dear guys is a Civet, or the malay name musang pulut .

It's actually my aunt's pet, she saved it from being eaten alive by

the komodo dragon living somewhere in the forest near my grandma's place.

OH and did I mention my grandma's place is in front of a

chinese cemetery? And really seriously sangat besar the cemetery.
I - could get lost in there, if I ever dared to go in that is.

Suddenly I feel like blogging, writing, and all that kinds of things,

banyak happen, and in fact just came back from kuantan pahang,

we had a tahlil for arwah tok. met alot of people i hadnt met in years.

It was okay, and okay trip. Still haven't uploaded anything from

both the kedah and pahang trip. dont know why tapi terasa malas.

Maybe esok lusa bila ada time okay jugak nak upload. Mama wants

me to upload on her fb too. woohoo. okay now what.

Hmmm

*thinks real hard*

Oh and my parents are thinking of getting a new car,

mainly because the car we have now is causing us MASSIVE

problems, fuel pump dah tukar like 4 times already kot? and

banyak lagi other things. Speaking of cars I'll be getting my

license NEXT YEAR!!! WOOHOOO

APRIL BABY!!! :D

lol.

okay now da tatau nak tulis apa. k bye.

2010-07-15T18:26:00.003+08:00

i really feel like this right now

Tearing through the light of your horizon

2010-07-11T16:06:00.007+08:00

okay I'm sleepy, but I want to blog and it's raining outside and its sunday and its a great day to blog and write crap. Well, lets start, HELLO GUYS! whatsup? My life has been just er. idk. how can i describe boring with a slight fudge and strange/nerve wrecking events and a little bit of bossyness?

here's how you do it.

WALALALLALABANGBANG BOOM BOOM clunk

okay excuse my randomness, i'm quite at the opposite side of where i'm heading right now.

I know I said I'd upload the pictures from kedah up, but im laaaaaaaaayzy

and i havent really got the time to do alot of things. anyway, my piano exam was at pj hilton last thurs. it was okay i guess. i did mess up on my arpeggios.pieces were okay, sight-reading dont ask. pray i pass.

my life sort of depends on this. my theory's this september. which is just 9 weeks away. terrified really. but hey at least somethings coming up.

Moving on,

The other day I went to the curve and saw Circa Survive's album Blue Sky Noise . I was excited!

But the problem was the cash. it costs rm48.90 . really over the budget here. I MIGHT buy it next time because i love circa so much. Now I just want Fixed At Zero to come out here pleaseee! then i wanted to go to 27th heaven to go see some shirts and stuff, but then TUTUP

and im like whatthefak?!?! why the hell everytime i go to this store its ALWAYS CLOSED?

But then aha, today I got this mail from one of the guys from 27th heaven store and they said they are re-locating. I have to agree man, they should. Why? because its quite hard to find the store if you aren't familiar with the place.

Okay now I shall now have my fangirlness of talking about my favourite band right now..

which is obviously, VERSAEMERGE . *skip if you dont give a fak*

this. is. blake harnage.

he plays lead guitar for the band and he does all the synths/programming and keys.

He is turning 22 this year and he is really tall ( 6'2 to be exact) . His name is Blake Percy Harnage and he's from Florida. I loveeee him! He's a sweetheart, the quietest in the band but still hilarious.

This on the other hand is Devin Ingelido, he might seem like a pain sometimes BUT he is however a really funny guy and he is nice . :) He plays the bass and he even has a side band that's called 'Tonight We Dream' ! He's on the lead vocals in TWD and they play hardcore/screamo .
And this is the one and only Sierra Kusterbeck, the lead vocalist of VersaEmerge. Shes 19 turning 20 this year. She used to be in a performing arts school but later dropped out because she wanted to concentrate on VersaEmerge. She is really pretty and I sort of look up to her.

I mean her vocals are WOW. She's only gotten better from where shes started. I still remember when she first started with the band people were saying she sings all flat and she would reply back on the youtube comments and stuff. I'm glad shes where she is right now. really love her. =) shes awesome!

Soooo yeah go check them out, and go hear their new album called 'Fixed At Zero'. It's good stuff. and also their song 'Father sky' it didnt make it to the regular album ( its only available on itunes deluxe album), but its a great song i suggest you to listen to it.

really hope they come to malaysia one day. =) btw, tbh i sort of miss jerry and anthony. :/

especially jerry, he's hilarious.

okay enough versaemerge-ing . :P

i know you can tell im obsessed with these guys. haha lol.

okay gotta go bye. lol

2010-06-26T16:15:00.001+08:00

im at alor setar :)

ohitsnothingmuchreally

2010-06-17T15:25:00.005+08:00

Helloooo guys .

It's been such a long time since I've blogged and I apologize.

so much has been happening I can't really put it into words.

I'm awfully quiet these days. It's strange. Hm. I feel like I need to

open myself up again. I need start thinking clear. maybe I

should go for a walk or something. I need to clear my mind.

Perhaps it's just one of my moments? Hmmm :/

So as you know, now it's the holidays, sadly I've been doing

absolutely NOTHING. It's quite depressing. My exam's less then

20 days away and to be honest I am quite worried. But

I covered everything already, my pieces are good, scales,

everything is well. I just want to do well :[

Anyway if you're wondering who are the three people up

here.

well they are my favourite band :) Called 'VersaEmerge'.

Why do I like them? Why am I so obsessed until I have

so many pictures of them on the side of this blog?
because their music is gooodd. I love their lyrics.

It isn't the type you'd hear often ya know?

Oh and i have this massive crush on Blake .

Oh wait! you don't know which one is Blake?:O

ohmygod

where have YOU BEEN?!?!?!

THIS IS BLAKE HARNAGE.

I love him, why you ask? BECAUSE HE IS SO
ASDFGHJTALENTEDGUHIJKOO

I adore him. Really :D Anyway if you're interested,

their new album is called 'Fixed At Zero' and I've been hearing

the album non-stop for album 2 days now :D it's good.

Don't judge this band by just listening to one song,

Because they are worth your time. To me, their latest

album managed to put aside all the paramore comparingness.

Why?
WELL GO LISTEN TO ALL THE ELEVEN TRACKS TO FIND OUT WHY!

haha.

k thats it.

bye xx

blake i love u.

HAHAHAHA

im a bird

2010-05-09T17:23:00.004+08:00

Hello guys.

Soooooo. my life sekarang agak bosan, I mean takde pape yang menarik berlaku. A week ago I pergi tengok Tokio Hotel dengan haikal and aiman. Not bad lah, cuma the crowd wasn't really awesome. TH and the opening bands were great nonetheless. Hmm. I tatau kenapa nowadays I rasa agak sedih macam idk how to explain. :/ Mungkin because I rindu my kucing kot? Yes ada kekosongan yang sangat ketara dalam hati i. Orang kata kucing ni takde meaning apa2, bukan macam human. But to me Pheaw meant so much to me! Kasih sayang semua i curahkan dekat dia. :( hmmm i miss you pheaw. i know you're no longer here in this world, i can feel it. you're gone and i have accepted that fact. Flippin fudge , hmm what to write about?

So ummm my music teacher said im hard working, i was shocked *tiru stail aiman said that lol*.
I'm not hard working , i slack off alot,im lazyy. sadly, it's a shame. imagine all the
other things i can accomplish by putting extra effort. which explains why I'm trying to change
myself. Haih, really donno what to say. I feel 'darker'. I even changed my blog layout to dark black ness. :/ I suppose to DO feel kind of empty. i hope this won't last like last time.

Yesterday went out with my bro, saw the feathers I wanted at forever 21. Damn kenapa when
I'm broke baru I jumpa all the things I want?!?!?! It wasn't that expensive really, it was only Rm25 for the necklace and rm35 for the hair clip. Sadly 35 ringgit and 25 ringgit didn't fit my budget. Because I'm...sigh....broke. But thank GOD I managed to buy a perfume for my mum for mothers' day. =) Back to the feathers , i want the hair clip. then the necklace. too bad its in
black though, i wanted it in like brown or maybe a mixture of colours. :D i need more dream
catchers in my room. i want to re-decorate my room too. because at this rate, my room does
not reflect any inch of my personality. I want it to represent me. =)

Okay that's enough crapping for today I guess. oh and pheaw I miss you :'(

oh and HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!!!! :D mwah mwah love you mama !!!!!

-mynameissuraya

:(

2010-05-04T15:27:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

2010-04-19T18:12:00.001+08:00

who are we?

i hope im not the only one that remembers this show

2010-04-10T01:37:00.001+08:00

i hope other people remember this show too ;p
used to watch it alot when i was a kid. hehe

sixteen

2010-04-09T16:08:00.005+08:00

im finally sixteen! wooohooo. tapi tak celebrate hebat, not like those fo-sho super sweet sixteen shows .LOL . had dinner at itallianies and had some cake at home. went out ronda ronda with
the family. On the day of my birthday went out with the brother and aiman. Too bad tak bring my camera :(((( Thats why there aren't much pics. There's only some pics yang we took at home. but hey a goooddd birthday it was. Cause you know la *kening kening to haikal and aiman*. ;D hehe.

anyway,

my meow meow tak balik lagi. and to be completely honest, i really feel as if I'm never going to
see him ever again. which makes me very sad. but i have to let him go. only GOD knows where
he is.

btw, i won tickets to go see Tokio Hotel.

i was bored

2010-03-29T19:10:00.008+08:00

Music quizzy thing, shuffle the ipod!

How am I feeling today?
Paramore - Turn It Off (acoustic) :( true

Will I get far in life?
Pink - I Don't Believe You

How do my friends see me?
Rachael Yamagata - Sunday Afternoon

Where will I get Married?
Flyleaf - There For You ♥ *sounds like a mountain...lol

What is my best friend's theme song?
Bats For Lashes - Horse & I (O.o whoooo)

What is the story of my life?
Automatic Loveletter - Hush :'(

What is/was highschool like?
Mindless Self Indulgence - Never Wanted To Dance

How can I get ahead in life?
A Fine Frenzy - Ashes and Wine *damn whats with all the sad songs..lol

What is the best thing about me?
Neil Sedaka - One Way Ticket

How is today going to be?
Hayley Williams - Teenagers

What is in store for this weekend?
You Me At Six - The Consequence *whooh rockin weekend..lol

What song describes my parents?
Paramore - when it rains

To describe my grandparents?
Versaemerge - clocks acoustic version

How is my life going?
Coldplay - spies . *true

What song will they play at my funeral?
A Day To Remember - If It Means Alot To You

How does the world see me?
fight!fight!fight! - i've got five fingers

Will I have a happy life?
Laurie Z - The River ♥

What do my friends really think of me?
VersaEmerge - Past Praying For *yikes..lol

Do people secretly lust after me?
Hoobastank - The Reason

How can I make myself happy?
All American Rejects - The Wind Blows

What should I do with my life?
Forever The Sickest Kids - Whoa Oh!

Will I ever have children?
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down

What is some good advice for me?
Natalie Imbruglia - Shiver

How will I be remembered?
He Is We - Pardon Me

What is my signature dancing song?
Death Cab For Cutie - Meet me on the equinox

What do I think my current theme song is?
John Mayer - Gravity ♥ ♥

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Forever The Sickest Kids - What Do You Want From Me? *YAYYYYYY*

What type of men/women do you like?
Bon Iver & St Vincent - Roslyn

URGENT!! HELP!!

2010-03-26T15:18:00.006+08:00

MISSING CAT

To the residents of BANDAR UTAMA if you have seen this cat anywhere please do contact me, email me here : Stars_surya21@hotmail.com
He is roughly around 4 years old, quite big cat. Has a chipped teeth on his left side fang. Sometimes afraid when approached by strangers and might run away. NAME : PEAOW . Last seen on Sunday (21st march 2010) . It has been 5 days since we last saw him. I live in BU2, so to all BU2 residents please keep an eye for this cat. We miss him terribly.
He IS an indoor AND outdoor cat. Used to going out but always returns at least once a day. PLEASE HELP US FIND HIM! thanks.

come back home baby, i miss you :'(

feelings

2010-03-24T00:38:00.002+08:00

Malam malam macam ni banyak benda mesti masuk dalam kepala. Ye la, waktu siang semua happy happy, mana ingat benda yang sedih sedih ni, unless of course hujan ke apa. Then all the memories come flooding in. It's just that... i don't know. I know I haven't been updating as often as I used to. Nak kata nothing happened in my life, tak jugak. Banyak benda actually happened. Banyak sangat until my mind dah tak boleh nak fungsi. Tak boleh nak accept the things yang I kena accept. Tapi nak buat macam mana. This is life, you have to just go with it, no matter what.
Well whatsup whatsup? Today I had my piano class as usual. and tetibe blur macam nak mampus. Maybe still agak terkejut dengar pasal what happened yesterday about the boy yang crash tu. Entah, and perhaps I'm pretty worried about my cat yang tak balik balik lagi ni kot.

To be honest, there are so many things I want to write about.

But the thing is I'm just not ready to share it with the world yet.

I'm just not.

lets party

2010-03-20T17:41:00.001+08:00

another couple weeks till i turn sixteen! *ceh, kecoh jeeee*

the art of missing

2010-03-08T01:26:00.002+08:00

tonight i tetibe rasa macam i miss someone, let's name him, well . C .
dulu i was rapat dengan dia, but oh well i screwed up. stupid me. but idk, suddenly tonight
i teringat kat dia, and like yeah i miss him. i've never ever been the kind to let other people know me 100%. yeah some people MIGHT think I'm like an open book or something cause i have a blog and all that kind of shit, but honestly I'm not the kind of person that when I have a problem,
I go rushing to someone else. I tak nafikan i pernah buat macam tu, tapi amat teramat amatlah jarang. I ni jenis yg suka keep to myself when it comes to horrible situations. I don't 'depend' on other people. Back to this person, si C ni. I rasa sampai sekarang, I tak pernah jumpa any one like him. he is one of the nicest people i've ever known. and sampai sekarang, i rasa hanya dia sorang tau who i really am. although i know he really doesn't give a shit anymore. we're so apart now. cakap pun once in awhile. faham2 lah, masing masing busy with our own lives. i pun busy jugak with my own life. dah tak blog as much as i did before and stuff.
maybe malam ni i agak sentimental, biasalah, when tak boleh tido ni, macam macam masuk dlm kepala. i teringat our conversations dulu, and masa first time i call dia like wtf i was so f-king nervous. haha that was funny. but still, i messed up man. ok thats all bye.night.

2010-03-04T18:49:00.002+08:00

I don't feel like I'm living
I miss the times when I felt so alive
I feel like the days are just passing by
With no real improvements,
With not much,

whatineeddesperatelynow,
is change

one two three four

2010-02-19T13:48:00.010+08:00

hi guys, these are the few things i did during the hols. first, i went to FRIM with dahnia and her parents and with haikal. We jumpa Farid kat sana and then half way through, Rina and Aisar datang. It was fun, water agak cetek kat atas tu. Tapi kan, klau kat tgah tgah tu. WHOAH air sangat sangat BEST! After that we took pics dekat rumah2 contoh around that area.
Here are some of the pics we took:
and yes, you can LOL at the last pic up above. it's my brother Haikal. being well... himself.
LOLL.

two days ago lepaked with rara, khairil,and anna. bosan gak ah.
but fun :) ehehe, masa starbucks very funny, and the pics we took. totally LOL-worthy. :D first we went to curve, but then bosan so we went to ou.
tgk2 ou punyalah ramai orang. ohmygawd. O.O ahah, will write more when im free or something.

by each and every step

2010-02-12T02:00:00.002+08:00

I'm nervous and scared, as nervous and scared as a cat is when it is forced to bathe.
As terrified as a kid that's scared of clowns, forced to take a picture with one. But I know that this is the only way out. If I don't go through this, there will be no other alternative. No 'other options'. Just this. It's late, reaaaal late at night right now. But the thing is, only during these hours I get total silence without much distraction. So I can concentrate on blogging. So I can really 'think through' my mind.
I have a lot going through my life right now. I know not many people understand what I am trying to say. But my family knows and that is good enough for me. I'm so blessed to have such a supportive family. Each and every member of my family never gave up on me (not saying I have a lot of family members but just thought that sounded cool haha) . My mama she's always been supportive of me throughout everything. Even when I messed up badly in life. She was always there. I'm so sorry that I've hurt you. My father as well, was there for me. Although we don't talk much about the serious stuff. I know, he has my back. I know I've hurt him alot during the past and I regret that. I regret the things I had said/done and wrote. But now we are closer then ever. It is true when they say that during the storm things would get pretty bad but once the storm's over it brings you closer than you actually even were!
My brother, well what I can say about him? I feel lucky, lucky to have a brother like him.
I know full well that not many sisters get awesome brothers like mine! :D The kind of brother that always hangs out with you, brings you around, lets you hang out with his frens, always spend time together and other stuffs. :) thank you haikal for always being there.

I know I didn't write alot about my new year resolutions or things that happened last year.
Well... it's complicated. I have so much planned for this year. I'm so scared I MIGHT NOT be able to fulfil it all! But I'll just have to brace myself and go head up towards it. No turning back.
About last year, to be honest, it was a wasted year. I could have done sooo much better.
I'm trying to redeem that this year. I'm trying to GET BACK MY LIFE. I'm trying to get back on the rails of the right track.

I'm on a mission. a mission for myself. my aim is clear. I might not be ready now.
But I WILL be ready.

xxoxxo
Suraya M

i think we have a problem

2010-02-08T18:11:00.002+08:00

"bring me a lighter flapjack, we might have to burn the place down."

HELP

2010-02-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

imsostressedout.

2010-02-01T19:46:00.001+08:00

Live life to the fullest, till we're out of breath, till our legs won't walk anymore.
keep on having the fun we all deserve!

i am a master of nothing .. well. for now

2010-01-31T20:26:00.006+08:00

Hi guys long time no posting! err well at least, a proper post I mean..
I've been reaaally busy the past few weeks . grr. I don't like it one bit.
soooooooo
now that I've finally got my lazy self on the laptop. what am i going to write about?
well I've been meaning to change the top part of my blog.
To ya know, make it more 'personalized', instead of the guitar chick.
something that would suit the title of my blog.. which is, of course..
SUPER COOKIE NINJA . woohoo

lol...I don't know why.. but I've been pretty obsessed (okay, not obsessed, too much of a strong word), well i've been really into FTSK all of the sudden. and Kyleee! is so comel :D
Their new album is pretty sickkk! love it! love ftsk!! forever the sickest kidsss :D
*okay total randomness*

i love this picture of blake and sierra :D
they're so cute!and especially Blake, oh gosh...can i ever find a guy like him here?
*total meltdown* :D lol okay, its so damn obvious that I am clueless on what
to right about. damn you writer's block. damn you.

*I'll think of something good to say...soon. lol
tata

..

2010-01-26T00:01:00.001+08:00

21/01/10
I learn from my mistakes
Take what you said
I learn from my mistakes and I try to fix them back into place

25/01/10
The words I say are so aimlessly said
The stares I give are blank and misread

2010-01-10T13:27:00.000+08:00

living the everyday routine.

. boring

pictures from 2009

2010-01-05T23:18:00.007+08:00

Picture's of 2009! these pictures are some of the wonderful events and occasions or just some normal lepaking with friends and family from 2009! :] hehe just thought I'd post it all up.

* check out the pics, yr picture might be here somewhere. heehee :D

ALL AMERICAN REJECTS .

dreams

2010-01-03T23:26:00.005+08:00

have you ever had a dream that felt so real? Real up to the point where you can actually feel your toes curling, your hands sweaty and you can even feel the wind blowing? I don't know about you guys, but dreams like these rarely happens to me.

So I had this dream last night, I walked into a cinema. An empty cinema, with not a single person there, neither was the film/ads playing on the big screen. But I walked right in. Then I saw this person, he was sitting there in the middle of the back row all alone. I knew who he is, he's my friend. A friend that I once shared so much things with. A person whom at one point was more than a friend. A person that I haven't met in a while. Some one I rarely talk to as much as compared to last year. So he was there, and I said Hi.

Then we started talking, about life. and other things in general.
he advised me,
he told me things.
and best of all, we talked like there was no tomorrow.
in the end i told him i miss you,
and he said the same thing.

and so i left the cinema.

im sorry if this dream sounds stupid to you, because all of the sudden it seems stupid to me when I write it down like this. But seriously, it felt so real. and tbh, i kinda do miss him. But things are different now. everything is. maybe, just maybe one day. things will turn around.

2009?

2009-12-28T15:08:00.006+08:00

hey guys, I've been meaning to write about 2009 the whole week. But the problem is that I don't know how to start, or well how to write it. How do I explain this year?
Well.. this year has been quite a roller coaster ride. But also as a matter of fact, a boring one.
I hate the fact that I didn't meet my own expectations. Wow, so I guess that means I'm disappointed in myself? Perhaps I am. I didn't do as much as I thought I would.

But let's try to be positive here! Hmm.. so what happened in 09?

- Went to a couple of shows, but only saw one international act which was AAR
- My fatty cat is still as cute as ever
- found out a couple of shocking revelations, but as they say, things like these tend
to grow people closer together.and that's very true ! :)
- as for my musicccc, this year i registered for my piano exams fr next year. and i learned to
play guitar too!of course , guitar i belajar sendiri la kan.
- oh and another thing I'm so very thankful about this year is my piano teacher miss julia.
I think i owe her a lot. and I'll write more about that later.
- hanged out with the pals alot!
- ummie is leavin' malaysia :'( and i won't be seeing her in the next 3 years. WHOAH lama tu! :(

entahla.. i can't find the right mood to write about 09,
it's was an 'okay' year for me. nothing too special happened. nothing that bad happened.
im just hoping that 2010 will be a better year :)

and i just realized this, but 2010 semua orang busy. All my friends are like ABCDEfcking busy.
That includes me too. I've been slacking off this year... too much. So next year I'll try harder. Improve better and of course, will stay stronger <3 cheers!
Lagipun there's alot of things I want / need to do next year. Hmm.. all the best to everyone too okays :]

And I think I'm so lucky to have such a supportive music teacher! miss julia i love youuu!
:D No one has ever believed in me as much as you did, and so, I will make you feel proud of me :) I will try my hardest and will keep on playing. practice makes perfect right? ;)

hehe. well, hope 2010 will be a fun year! :]

ps: celebrating new year's eve at home. boring but will find something fun to do tonite!
should i make some pancakes? or maybe cookies today? maybe i should wash my cat...
oh wait no, thats not special enough for new years eve. hehe, i'll wash him tomorrow.
gee idk what i wanna do today :O oh wait, you know what? maybe I'll chill with the
family today. :)

Missing

2009-12-21T10:50:00.008+08:00

Hi everyone, it's about 10 something am and to me thats early, considering the fact that I always wake up around gee 12 in the afternoon? :O thats so not good, i'm trying to reverse my time clock ya know? wake up early, sleep late :P Oh and talking about sleeping late,
last night I watched Twilight Zone! (no no..not Twilight with the edward and the jacob)
it's not bad, i watched til like 3 am with the bro. and he was covering his eyes and I'm like why the eff are you covering yr eyes?!?! O.O lol.

So what is up with me? Here's a few things to begin with,
I'm gonna write a post dedicated to 2009 soon - we'll see how that goes.
Uhm, but besides that what IS going on with me?i'll be honest, practically NOTHING is happening in my life. everyday is the same boring shizzz.
I'm pissed paramore are going to Singapore, but no signs that they are coming to Malaysia (which really sucks).

Anyway today I read someone's blog about going back to the baling, Kedah. span>
and honestly that makes me miss Alor Setar A LOT. I miss my cousins, the ones that
make me go crazy. I miss Aidi, playing games with him is one of the things we do best.
Especially when it comes to killing people on GTA. dayum! thats fun.
Oh and then Alif, omgggg. It's been so long since I've seen him! :O I miss Pak Ai - my uncle with his silly jokes. I miss everyone there and when i say everyone i mean it! :3

what were we doing? yep you guessed it, FISHING :D at the back of Aidi's ( left) house at taman kancil 2. tehee, and this picture was taken like over a year ago i think?
haha my fav kedai makan :D

my arwah tok's house at alor setar :)
+
all the relatives :]

miss that. xx

oh wow, i took so long to write this, it's like 11.49 am now :O

to someone

2009-12-09T15:57:00.004+08:00

i hate it when i say something to you on facebook and then
you go and reply to what i said on your myspace/msn STATUS.

>.<

wtf. just talk to me like normal already la.

cousins

2009-12-01T21:00:00.002+08:00

So whatsup dudes? The above person as you guys can see is my dear cousin Aidi.
He's only like 14 but he is bloody tall! Damn! Guess whats his height now?
178 cm
Thats tall, real tall. With him I feel short when in fact, I'm 171 cm and thats not THAT short right? :p I bet that once he reaches 17 he will beat Haikal. hoho!
I watched New Moon already, and tbh I didn't put any high expectations on the movie
because as everyone always says,the novel is always better than the movie. To me,
it felt as if they tried to fit and cut short every chapter of the novel, up to the part where
some bits and pieces are left out? But hey I'm watching it again with Farah and the gang tomorrow, I have to be certain to write a review. :p Because the first time I watched it ,
I did it with two dudes, who haven't even watched twilight and could care less about it.
And the only reason WHY we did watch New Moon was because it was the premier
day and there was nothing else to watch :p HAHA and you wanna know the BEST PART?
We were FRONT ROW baby! ;D haha
okay so heres the deal ;

- Aidi came over , found out that Tok Nab is ill :( Went to Kak Na's house.
He stayed a couple of days, had some fun! and drank too much coke while playing
Monopoly on the Xbox.

- My darling cat Peaw is ill :( Which explains why I've been pretty away from everything.
Cause I've been taking care of him and everything.

- I'M sick too which pretty much sucks. hell no, i hate asthma!!! D:

- Hmm what else, what else.. gee idk.

I don't know whats bothering me honestly, I don't feel much nowadays.

Ohh and these two cwazy girls up here are the ONLY two girls I still keep in touch
after I left my primary school. Syakirin & Ummie, honestly there's just something
that happens when I'm with these two. It's a comfort level I don't feel with many people.
The feeling of that we're all equal and no one's trying to out do each other , get it? haha
thats why i love these two to bits!

ohh and tomorrow i'm goin to cineleisure with farah and the others ,
we're watching New Moon ( and its my second time lol) . But hey I need the fresh
air, who doesn't like adventure? Anyway everyone knows I can never stay put... :p

okay will update later!

2009-11-27T21:22:00.003+08:00

Heyyyo guysss :)

Ssup?
So much has been happening up to the point where I don't have
enough time to blog anymore! Will update soon! :)
Oh and Aidi's here too! How awesome is tht? haha,

4th fly party

2009-11-15T21:57:00.003+08:00

and so i went.

malas nak blog today, so I'm just gonna post these pictures up okay? :]]

but i'll tell you something for sure, it was a wet wet wet day.

2009-11-12T17:24:00.002+08:00

somebody, save me

.

So I Changed My Layout

2009-11-10T19:09:00.001+08:00

.... So what do you guys think?
I like it, i think it's better.
I'll add more photos on the side later when I have free time :D
But for now I gotta run~ Byee!

ok this is random lol

2009-11-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

a few big turn offs for me

Not Liking Cats

If you can't stand a cat, well you can't stand me mister!

No Guts to even watch a horror movie with me without covering your EYES

seriously man if you wanna be with me, you gotta have GUTS to feel the unknown!

If You Keep Bugging Me All Day 24/7

I need my own space too ya know? I NEED TO BREATHEEEE TOO! D:

All American Rejects Concert!!!

2009-11-02T16:25:00.007+08:00

Okay guys so here what happened during AAR's show last saturday! Here goes!

me and my bro

We arrived at 6.30 pm, the moment I stepped out of the car I took a deep breathe and
in my heart I said, ' Bring It On'.
The sky was cloudy and the road was quite wet as I made a quick dash to
cross the road with my curly-haired brother, Haikal. He didn't want to go really,
because he wasn't really interested in these sort of things. But I , Suraya was determind
to get my brother turned into having a good time rocking out - er..or at least have a fun time there :p

I took some rushing steps in the place. 'whoah, it's huge' I thought. I meant the whole stadium,
not the venue of Car Park A though. :p I texted my buddy Aiman saying that we have arrived.
He texted back saying that he's still on the lrt. So me and haikal decided to queue first.
So being the overly excited me the first thing I said when I entered the place was.
"YAY TAK RAMAI ORANG!" with a happy > :D smiley on my face, my heart was beating
rapidly to the thought that I might get to be infront first! - Or at least I thought I was.
My hopes were dashed by the sudden sight that I had been looking at the queue to
"VIP & MEDIA ENTRANCE". Oh shizzles. Looks like I've been staring at the wrong
damn queue! Okay so never mind that, as I picked up my courage I walked further inside.
I took a glance to the venue which was on my right. "damn those VIP's dapat masuk awal!".
The queue as I had expected was damn long, really. I did consider to potong the queue.
But being a nice gal I am, I didn't. Plus it would be mean to have done that anyways. People would be cursing at me and all. sheez. Didn't want that to happen right? So I queued.

Luckily there was a group of veryvery hot guys in front of me. hahaha, :P sorry could not help
myself but to let out a little smile on that . hehe, :p

As queuing and talking, and waiting for Aiman and boring boring
I saw this dude with long hair..and another dude with long hair pass by,
and I told Haikal "ehh Haikal, tu bukan Ashraf ke?"
Haikal was like "Where?" I said... "Your left laa" .
He said "A'ah la. I think it's him". and I said "Let's say Hi!"
But the moment me and Haikal turned he dah berjalan jauh ke belakang kita.
awh man. missed him!
Anyway!
As we entered the venue, me and haikal pushed ourselves pergi
depan. So we got a pretty decent view of the show. Not SUPER
depan, but kinda in the middle row ya know?

First to open was Disagree, not really a huge fan of theirs but I have to admit
they were pretty fun! After Disagree showed up it was Pop Shuvit.
Everyone loves them righttt. Lompat lompat was fun!
Then One Buck Short! Ohh man I was waiting for them like seriouslyyy,
I didn't realize I was a huge fan of theirs until 31st oct. Where I was going crazy and all.
haha but too bad their vocalist was sick, :( kesian him. But they carried on with the
show and all but they invited other vocalists to join in. that was a pretty smart idea ritee?
;D

Then the wait for All American Rejects was such such a bore. But hey it's common
for bands to take more than half an hour to do their soundcheck and to set up the
equipment and all right?
Anyway,they kept on replaying the same 20 seconds of the top 10 songs.
So it was getting pretty annoying.
It came up to a point where..the moment we heard
Will.I.Am singing 'tonights the night!lets live it up!' the Boo's and F you's came,
followed by DIGI SUCKS!!!and I screamed... MAXIS ROCKS!!!!haha ;p
Hey I love my maxis yo, I don't know why I still keep that DiGi sim card of mine.

We had a couple of false alarms, when you think they're gonna start playin' and all but
you found out that they aren't ready yet :p

And in the meantime of all this, me and my bro still haven't met up with Aiman yet. We kept on texting each other and yeah it was quite frustrating. But then All American Rejects came up!!
WOHOOOO~
They were freaking amazingggg~
To be honest with all of you... I don't really remember what song they opened with..
But I think it was 'Move Along' ? Damn tak ingat! I feel so bad :p haha, blame it on the fevur I'm having now guysss! But I DID take a couple of vids. here's one of the vids I took.

They ended with the song The Wind Blows and Gives You Hell, that was just so awesome seriously.
I know I just can't describe the show. I'm not good at describing either :p
But it was a fun show, Tyson dressed up as a Native American. And he's just super fun .
I mean really. I got a pretty bad sore throat after the show, not sure whether it was because I
screamed too much, or was it the pulut sambal i ate at the tempat rehat kinrara? gee idk.
Guys, this is what happens when you mosh too hard while wearing your glasses.
Your glasses fall and I can assure you,you are never getting back those glasses in 100% perfect condition.
I think we found about 2 of these and I'm sure there's a dozen more out there but it's just
that we never searched further more. I'm sure there could be handbags or shoes or something
out there haha. I even recall someone loosing their car keys that night! The announcer said..
"To the person who lost their Ford car key that is straped on the a monkey key chain...."
. Wow. kesian whoever who lost that man.He or She must've been in total panic mode! lol.

Now I shall end this with photos of us ( me, haikal and aiman) and the end of it all.

Haikal, done for the day.

Suraya all sweaty and filled with rebellion

Aiman, being very patriotic showing how much he loves his country!

Till then!
peace out,
xoxo Suraya Melinaa!

Graduation,Asthma and upcoming rockin' weekend

2009-10-27T22:48:00.004+08:00

Zhafir,Haikal &&& Eddieee~

Hello :) Sir Haikal sudah graduate. and not only that, Sir Haikal has also passed his driver's license. Which means I have someone to drive me around! :D twalalalal~~
As you can see I posted some pictures here for you guys to see :]

But everything was okay, lepaked with the bro's fwens. and had a talk about what course to take and all with nik. ye la...tanya orang yang lebih ilmu la kan.. or as you can say, orang yang lebih banyak experiance compared to me. (TUA!! HAHA) lols.

Okay enough with the grad ceremony,
so here's whatsup with me. Right now I've got asthma and that pretty much sucks. Plus I can't find my inhaler. shizzz! But I'll be alright soon. I don't want this to effect this sat's show. I HAVE TO GO and I AM GOING! Tysonnnn~ Nick~ here i come. :p

Today I'm really happy cause I did soo good at my piano lesson today, smpai my teacher pun puji i se-mountain. LOL. no kidding , im just happy and I'll be skipping a grade kot next exam.
*riskriskriskrisk*

I can't wait to go this Saturday, but I don't want to over think it ya knw? Cause when ever I think abt something too much it just doesn't happen. And trust me you don't wanna see me emo-ing ard home or ard you guys with a > :(( < expression on my face for 4 weeks straight.

Okay I gtg goodnight fellas. :]
write more when time permits me to do so. taaa~

Hi Bloggers

2009-10-23T21:49:00.004+08:00

Hello people! How's life? Gooddd? Boring? Fun? Sad?
Well... mine's pretty okay. Sorry for not blogging for sometime. Was scheduled to update the blog right after pmr. But I guess ya know me, since when do I ever follow schedules/plans or what so ever?! Yes, I don't. I'm the worst at planning, and I admit I CAN be quite afraid of planning life. Yes sometimes certain things need to be planned, if it melibatkan something important. But for me my life is better off spontaneous and un-planned. Because when I plan, I tend to over think.. and over thinking leads to high expectations. And when my expectations are rocket sky high that's where the disappointment comes when something doesn't happen the way I planned it. so yeah. okay i cakap crap lagi.

Nextt! Tomorrow is Haikal's graduation! Abang I dah habis diploma and he'll get his diploma tomorrow! The whole family is going, but I can't come in the dewan cause dalam tu can only masuk 2 orang. Damnit, takpe.
I'll sit outside and see the hot guys (itu pun if adela...if takde.hmm... MP3!!) lol....

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Anywaysssss, last week went out with rara,syafiqah,aisyah,aiman and boy sya (haa..lupa nama srry. :p)
Karaoke-ed kat Red Box and seriously awesome habis gila masa karaoke tu!haha, funny gilaaaa
but seriously we must do that again!
Nak bawak Haikal,Aiman gi karaoke kat sana nanti.
yesss. i know i look stupidddd.

okay next pulak!
Hmm... well. nowadays I've been going out too much till theres a hole in my wallet. I mean seriously, I need to save up some money to go watch AAR next saturday. heehee, Abah dah bagi green light! and jengjengjeng transport! mwaaaaaaaaaah sayang Abah :D

Okay gtg. Bye! :) blog more later. and of course kemunculan vincent esok . AHAHAHA :p
grad haikal. more updates laterrrr

can you hear me?

2009-10-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hello, can you hear me?
I've got something to tell you
I was lost, but you saved me
I'll go wherever you want to
'Cause I think that I've got to have you

I've had enough
I'm in love, it's true
So don't, don't take it away
'Cause I've got my eye on you

This song is my way of saying
What I needed to say
I am proud, I am strong
And you've been here all along
I didn't know it until today
I'm so glad that it happened this way

I've had enough
I'm in love, it's true
So don't, don't take it away
'Cause I've got my eye on you

Hold on now
You're leaving
Take these hands
Don't even say goodbye

I want you to know that
I'm going to miss you
Hold on to my heart
We'll make it through
And let it be known
All I want is you
And I'm learning to show it to you

I've had enough
I'm in love, it's true
So don't, don't take it away
'Cause I've got my eye on you

I've had enough
I'm in love, it's true
So don't, don't take it away
'Cause I've got my eye on you